I am currently in a moment of insecurity. I do feel like this every now and then. I feel that I can’t do anything without feeling judged. I feel that my world is well hidden behind the real one. I feel that I need to write this out on my blog because I need this out of my system, and I think that I’m not the only one who feels this way, so I want to try and help someone who is experienced or has experienced the same thing.
Ok, enough of the I’s. Today is the day for my ‘2 cents’ approach on this topic.
Why do I feel insecure and not-confident? ( I lied, I will be using more I’s)
I feel insecure and not-confident sometimes because I AM AFRAID ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE THINK ABOUT ME!
It is bad, I know, but I don’t know how to stop this yet. I am frightened of the stares, the sniggers, the laughs (all of which I have experienced sometimes) when I try to do something for ME. Sometimes I feel a lack of confidence because I am afraid that all of the above will happen, even though I don’t know if it will happen.
Now, the thing is, I feel special. I feel that my life is more than ordinary. I feel that I am going to achieve something really cool in the future, something that separates me from the others. I just think that I won’t achieve anything when I have this dark cloud over my head that tells me that I should stay put and hide in a hole because literally EVERYTHING I do feels judged by people.
Why can’t I feel confident? What is stopping me?
There really should be no reason for me to feel anything but confident. I guess the idea of people judging me and the feeling of being all alone with my choices are scary.
Hey:) I went to bed because I was drifting in an out of consciousness, and, you know… that isn’t good for productive thinking and emotion-spilling.
i actually don’t have any more to say right now. this feeling occurs frequently, but in phases. i am not ashamed to feel like this, but don’t want to dwell on something that i am not feeling at the moment.
umm… ok. i will post something later that i want to discuss, so stay tuned everyone (who reads my blog)
keep being amazing and creative and happy:)
*btw, I absolutely love this little cartoon exert that I found on Google Images. Sorry for the blurriness*